Tomorrow is the last day of 2009, so this will be my last blog of this year. I originally thought that 2009 went by pretty quickly, but now that it is coming to a close and I think back, it seems like it dragged on forever. I can’t believe that some of the things from earlier this year actually happened during this year rather than in 2008!

For me, 2009 had an undertone of negativity about it, but there were definitely many high points. As much as I would like to remember the good things that happened this year, there is a lot that I want to leave in the past. As I move forward into 2010, I hope to see a lot of things improve, both at home and at school. I’m not going to make any resolutions this year because I never keep them, but I am going to strive to make 2010 a better year both for myself and for those around me.

One step that I have already made toward a better year is that yesterday I deleted Lucy, my former best friend, from my buddy list. Every time I opened the window to see who was online, I would see her name and I would get all these angry feelings. I decided that wasn’t healthy (and kind of annoying really!), so I deleted her. We haven’t talked online in a long time anyway.

Don’t ask what happened between us. I hardly even know. Long story short, she seemed to drift, ignored me a lot, I got hurt, I did and said some stuff, gossip was spread back and forth by a mutual friend, she refused to talk to me about it like a normal person would, we finally “talked” about it, and over the course of it all we stopped being friends.

I know I’m better off without her, as others have told me as well. She’s a selfish person. I’m not just saying that out of spite; she really is. She didn’t treat me that well either, and I guess now that her old friends who deserted her before will take her back, she’s done with me. Whatever. Thinking about it just makes me angry. I’m not even sad about it anymore. Well, maybe just a little.

Either way, I shouldn’t dwell on the past. I have great friends now, both on and offline. I know who my true friends are, and I know that Lucy is not one of them. Kavya asked me to see a movie with a group of people from school toward the beginning of the holidays. I couldn’t go, but the fact that she invited me made me really happy. I am forever grateful to have Jimmy in my life, and I wouldn’t trade him for the world. Quantity isn’t important when it comes to friends; it’s the quality that matters.

I can move on from this whole affair. I will do my best to leave it behind as I step into 2010 with a more optimistic outlook. My year will start out well, because I will be starting it with Jimmy.