Tomorrow is the last day of 2009, so this will be my last blog of this year. I originally thought that 2009 went by pretty quickly, but now that it is coming to a close and I think back, it seems like it dragged on forever. I can’t believe that some of the things from earlier this year actually happened during this year rather than in 2008!
For me, 2009 had an undertone of negativity about it, but there were definitely many high points. As much as I would like to remember the good things that happened this year, there is a lot that I want to leave in the past. As I move forward into 2010, I hope to see a lot of things improve, both at home and at school. I’m not going to make any resolutions this year because I never keep them, but I am going to strive to make 2010 a better year both for myself and for those around me.
One step that I have already made toward a better year is that yesterday I deleted Lucy, my former best friend, from my buddy list. Every time I opened the window to see who was online, I would see her name and I would get all these angry feelings. I decided that wasn’t healthy (and kind of annoying really!), so I deleted her. We haven’t talked online in a long time anyway.
Don’t ask what happened between us. I hardly even know. Long story short, she seemed to drift, ignored me a lot, I got hurt, I did and said some stuff, gossip was spread back and forth by a mutual friend, she refused to talk to me about it like a normal person would, we finally “talked” about it, and over the course of it all we stopped being friends.
I know I’m better off without her, as others have told me as well. She’s a selfish person. I’m not just saying that out of spite; she really is. She didn’t treat me that well either, and I guess now that her old friends who deserted her before will take her back, she’s done with me. Whatever. Thinking about it just makes me angry. I’m not even sad about it anymore. Well, maybe just a little.
Either way, I shouldn’t dwell on the past. I have great friends now, both on and offline. I know who my true friends are, and I know that Lucy is not one of them. Kavya asked me to see a movie with a group of people from school toward the beginning of the holidays. I couldn’t go, but the fact that she invited me made me really happy. 
I am forever grateful to have Jimmy in my life, and I wouldn’t trade him for the world. Quantity isn’t important when it comes to friends; it’s the quality that matters.
I can move on from this whole affair. I will do my best to leave it behind as I step into 2010 with a more optimistic outlook. My year will start out well, because I will be starting it with Jimmy. 
This blog is so sweet.
I hope you have a great year, Rachel! I know you will. (:
2009 was a good year for me too. It did seem long! When you look back, the year seemed short but then you see the high points, and the year’s looking better, you know? Haha (:
Anyways, I’m glad you have Jimmy! and I hope we oontinue to be friends.
Happy almost New Years!
Jimmy sounds nice!
Yeah, it really is hard to believe where I was at from the beginning of this year until now. It’s amazing how one year can just make so much of a difference in a person’s life.
I’m sorry about your friendship fallout; I know what that’s like. But it was so smart of you to delete her from the list! It really makes me not want to give in to friends who don’t act like friends.
Also, I am so jealous of you and all the other seniors, because of 2010, haha. Seniors are so lucky because you can write SEN10RS, which I think is just so cool XD. And at my school we always have class cheers…nothing rhymes well with eleven. lol
I’m not a fan of how addicted I am to FB. Or how seeing people’s status updates of all the interesting or boring things they are doing make me feel like a stalker, cuz then I can just go to their profile O_o
Oh yeah! You were JUN10RS too! I’m even more jealous hahaha. Yea, I know heaven rhymes with eleven, but it takes to long to say haha.
Usually our class cheer is like “One-one, getting it done” or “One-one, let’s have some fun.” Something corny like that haha Do you have a class cheer?
Dim Sum is Chinese restaurant kind of like a buffet in a way. You sit at your table and they wheel around carts with all these different dishes on them, and you take what you want and they mark you off for what meals you take. So it is take what you want, not just a specific plate you order. Really yummy!
He really did wander! I have to put up the pictures; we have some where he is hanging out in the pocket of the live performer at the beer hall and it is just hilarious!
Yeah, you aren’t even allowed to loiter on the carpet at the casinos underage. Or the security comes and kicks you out. It’s crazy!
Well, in the New Years Eve afternoon I’m going prom dress shopping with my friends, even if I don’t end up going to prom XD. Then at night I am sad cuz I have no plans. I was going to run around the neighborhood at midnight with my friend, but she is spontaneously going on a short road trip with her family haha
Yeah, I was blogging at 3.30AM, but I was actually awake until 5.40AM that night
My sleeping is horrendous, haha 
I did have an awesome Christmas (: My graphics tablet was quite difficult to get used to, but I think it’s alright now, it’s pretty easy to use
hehe, My laptop is beautiful :L i love it, it’s a HP.
I still don’t like the idea of a webcam, if it was seperate from my laptop, I suppose I would be alright with it, but it’s just there looking at me! O.O
Thanks, I hope I get my Photoshop back too, I miss it so much! ¬¬
Today is the last day of 2009, it’s been a pretty difficult year for me, but I think I’m still going to miss it. Nine is my lucky number, hehe.
I lost quite a few friends this year, come to think of it.. Mainly for stupid things that I have done, or for the stupid things that they’ve done.
LMAO, are your smilies supposed to be little poops?
2009 was a pretty slow year =.= December flew by, but everything else was just kind of… eh.
I can’t believe it’s almost New Year. Weird.
2009 showed me a lot with the good times and the bad times and like you, I learnt who my true friends were.
My attitude and overall style have also changed somewhat.
I hope things at home improve for you, and also for me.
I never make resolutions but that’s a good goal to make.
I think it was a good idea to delete Lucy off your list… she really doesn’t sound worth your time and I’m sure there are other, better people out there who are better friends then she was.
Aw, don’t be sad about it! *hugs* I don’t know you very well but I know that you really don’t deserve to have dealt with the shit she gave you. =.=
Quality over quantity indeed. I’m glad you still have the people in your life who are much better then Lucy!
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I don’t show people my icons, haha, but I can see why you might want to!
Yeah… reviewing stressed me out! I had people forever applying and I felt like I had to do it because I felt bad because they were linking back and stuffs… and yes, it got a bit out of hand so I closed it.
Oh my God, don’t remind me of school… getting up at the crack of bloody dawn, shiteloads of homework… *dies*
LOL “uniqueness” probably should be “uniquity”, but whatever.
My best lazy stage… ZOMG. How to explain.
Basically I can’t be fucked to do a single thing. A SINGLE THING.
Apart from breathing and seeing… and living… but that’s about it
Good song (Y)
Thanks! I should draw something new next time though, lmfao.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! I just had the most awesomated layout idea. OMG. (Haha).
That was exceedingly random. Anyway I’ll start it in a few weeks.
Oh hell yeah. I’d love to have a magic nail painting thing.
I own a blue-grey, a purple, and a black. Chyeah.
And yeah, they do expect you to do that. Sad, I know.
I should be good at painting nails because I’m ambidextrous! But I still suck. I guess I need more practice.
Slipknot are pretty cool!
My sister is 15 – so older.
AND YUS. BLACK NAIL POLISH (Y)
Take care and happy new year!
In the end, you`ll just know that she wasn`t your true friend after all
[the ` s are more of a habit from aim ): but not on essays ;P] I mean like, the same happened to me, but it started by physical abuse. But just know that you did the right thing 
. &I wish you the best of luck with Jimmy 
!
Though a lot of people did think that we were, you know. I traveled to many different communities, though it took a lot of time. But it`s worth it. I rather have the guy wear a skinny jean properly, than him wearing baggy jeans sagging.
I wish for the best of you& Jimmy& the best of everything else 
Kae`s my cousin
Happy new years to you too
Well that’s cute, I hope you and Jimmy have a great start at the New Year. I have made some resolutions just to give me motivation and it usually works but if you know how you want to better yourself, and leave the negativity in 2009, then good for you! I also lost ties with a former best friend because of her selfish being and ignoring me whenever she felt like it. Some girls can be quite b*tches. Anyway, I know you will have a great New Years with Jimmy, and I will talk to you in 2010.
this blog is so cute! I totally agree w/ you on “quantity of friends doesn’t matter, its quality that matters” very true and very inspiring! Thanks for the post!
btw, I realized who my friends are this year too, and I’ve realized who wasn’t that true to her word also!
If i go back at a lower level i’ll be with alot of little kids because they do it by age really, not level
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lol ohh
well i dont even post icons because im really bad at them 
errm… baggy stretchy ugly ones… lol
yeahh
im so proud of myself 
Its not soo bad, my grandma is like a mile away and i only visit others seldomly
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Im glad 2009 was a pretty good year, it was for me too
I hope 2010 will be an even better year for both of us!
Haha yeah. :3 I’ll work extra hard when my grades count for college.
Then ill be in Cornell!
2009 was a OKAY year for me. Lots of death’s in the Summer. It actaully went by fast. Hopefully, 2010 will be better. (:
I hope you have a great New Years!
Thanks. Haha, there’s no such thing as a shitty comment.
lol…it’s a pile of shit!
Have a great new year, hope those resolutions work out! *continue to survive IB* Sounds like you’re a great friend
I’ve done that before, deleting friends off my list like in YM or something, and it usually works for me. Ignorance is bliss, most definitely. At least that way you don’t get to attract all these negative vibes everytime you see her online, right? Good for you.
Yup, never dwell on the past. Give more priority to what’s in the present and work for the future
Happy new year and keep safe! Hope you’ll have an awesome 2010!
Whoa. It sounds like you were in desperate need for a fresh start. Hopefully this yea treats you well.
I have an exfriend on my buddylist too. I should probably try deleting him soon. heh
anyway… happy new year!
yeah, I figured since black Friday wasn’t that long ago
. We always see things on news when it comes to that day, i remember a year or two ago where a lady tripped and people trampled over her and didnt care and she ended up dying :/ . It’s not worth it at all lol.
. I figured I might as well, at that price you can’t go wrong lol.
I got the lady in the water, rumor has it, and the sisterhood of the traveling pants
I know lol, the first day I got so sore! the next day I was still sore from it lol, I think my body is used to it now
your right to get rid of her, and it’s not healthy at all when it comes to having feelings of anger towards someone. I hate it when people don’t act mature and dont want to talk things out. I mean, yeah you don’t talk anymore, but it’s good for closure even though it was just a friendship that went bad.
It’s always nice to get invited to different things even if you can’t make it, its just the fact that they would like you there and it gives you a warm feeling. I hope they invite you to things more often
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Haha, yeshh, I’m a bum and just noticed. XD
YES! And I went home and showed my mom the picture I drew of my best friend. And she said “Who is Ryan?”
Yeah, I know, we didn’t know what backstabbing, gossiping, ditching meant. All we knew, was that, we thought another kid was cool, so we said.
“Will you be my friend?”
So simple, so easy.
Same to you too! Merry Christmas!
SAME HERE! Jeez, I swear there is something in the water or just something. Because this year was just.. another day really..And it went by really fast for some reason, the waiting I mean…
Last year it was painfully slow
Mmhmm, lol, just tradition..
But I must say, I did that too, lmao..
That sounds so evil.
Ughh, I know the feeling. ‘Lucy’s’ seem to be everywhere. All they do is hurt you and still they somehow are on your buddy list.
Sometimes, you just gotta delete them.
That was nice of her. I always like getting invited to places, it makes you feel special, lol XD
You’re right, again, quality over quantity.
this is a really good blog! && it was a good step to delete your ex-friend off your buddy list. moving on from her and the past is good!
happy new year!
I still can’t decide if 2009 went by super quickly or super slowly, either!
I think I’m getting confused because summer lasted a LOT longer than it normally does here in Canada. Messed up my internal clock! 
I’m not complaining, though — I’m ALREADY looking forward to spring/summer.
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Good for you, in deleting Lucy from both your buddy list and your mind! No one deserves a ‘friend’ like that … Unfortunately, I know all about this type of thing.
Also … Yay Jimmy!
*hugs* Good for you for deleting her off your contact list. I’ve done that several times. I did that last year with that creeper guy. I figured it was time to just leave it be. If he IMed me then so be it, but I don’t like seeing people’s names if I’m not on good terms with them anyways.
Well they probably were popular longer but in grade school, no one was rich enough to care for fashion anyways. We just bought what we liked. Now, I’m in a school full of trend setter/follower people. =P I think a lot of people have look-alikes. I just got the real thing, since they were there… and comfy and the salesman was really convincing. =P I fail at buying bargains.
^^ Skinny jeans are my thing. Not many other people wear them at my school. So I like em. ^^
… CS3 Collection.. 1600 dollars? .. *faints* I wish I was rich now.
Because they charged us a lot on this one bill… because I didn’t know that we were charged so much if I used like two texts. =P
(: Thank you. All the comments on this blog made me feel like I was getting a lot of taps on the back. (: I’m glad it’s all afresh. ^^
One day, I’ll invite you over and I’ll FORCE my mom to make some.
DDD She won’t even make it for me 
I have to wait years before she will finally make some. =P It’s that special.
To 2010! *toasts*
Happy New Year! (:
It’s good you managed to see this Lucy girl for what she is which sounds to me like she is fickle. You are better off well out of the situation with her.
haha no I wasn’t lucky enough to stay at that hotel/casino resort place XD It was far too busy there :/ Would of taken at least an hour of lining up just to check-in or out of the hotel!
Aww thank you! I hope 2010 will be lovely for you too!
Yes, removing one of your old friends from your buddy lists will make you a lot healthier so you won’t be infuriated as often
I’m glad that your leaving the past behind and looking forward
Quality of quantity will always overwrite in almost every scenario one can think of!
ugh, you know jeggings? Leggings+jeans=jeggings? theyre really popular where i come from…
Hey, Happy New Year Rachel.
Thanks for dropping by. Yeah studiolights.info exists. I don’t know. Right now, I think I’m just really disappointed with the website that’s why I keep getting crazy ideas. I’ll keep trying for domain contests but I feel integrity is something I want to keep. I think you’re a great website host as well. Nope, I don’t plan on moving any time soon. I just need a new layout that I’m actually satisfied with and it’ll make me want to stay even more. Studiolights is just a crazy temporary idea
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Even if I’m slightly late on that.
Ahaha, I wish! I’m not actually that “popular” in my grade. I’m considered a nerd. I have no idea how, but that’s how I got labelled. -_-” All because I strive for perfection and get mostly As and Bs.
But I don’t mind. I just don’t want to draw too much attention to myself. It makes me feel awkward. I’ve never been much of an ‘attention’ sort of person, unlike my sister!! XD She loves attention and will do anything for it.
Thank you!
That’s the spirit! Don’t dwell on the past, move on to the future.
As I like to think, “take things as they come”.